If you are in a dark place with your depression - even feeling suicidal - please know that it does get better. Realistically, it also gets worse again. It is a cycle. Just hold on. You are not alone, even if it feels that way.
I have been, and am, going through my own dark times. That is why I haven't been posting much on here. Also, I don't feel that it helps me, or anyone else, if I only ever use this blog to rant at length - and I am not even up to doing this at the moment.
Keep going as much as you possibly can, and recognise your own achievements, however small. Try not to be hard on yourself for not achieving more.
Sending love to anyone out there who is struggling right now, and reads this post. Please take care. There is hope. I believe in you.